Hey guys,

I know.

I know.

It has been such a long time since you guys have read anything from me. Please forgive me.  A lot has been going on and a lot has changed, but I guess I can say…

I still love the Lord with ALL of my heart, I am still a soldier in the ARMY, I am still a wife to my handsome husband, and I am still alive and doing well. —- Those things did not change (haha).

 

 

PLEASE BE AWARE; MY FEELINGS ARE ALL POURED OUT IN THIS ONE BLOG. READ AT YOUR OWN RISK! TRANSPARENCY AT IT’S BEST. 

Today I want to jump straight into writing about siblings and the importance of treating your siblings the way they deserve to be treated; which is with LOVE.

First let me start by saying I LOVE FAMILY and I am such a huge family person! I yearn to be around family. I yearn to be close with my family. I yearn to know my family. I yearn to be loved and to love my family. I just simply love family.

I am inspired to write about family and my siblings today because this past week I noticed that I allowed myself to go into a depression due to me not having the relationships I would like to have with some of my family members.

STORY TIME!!

I am the youngest child of 4. So, yes….. I AM THE BABY lol &&& NO I WAS NOT SPOILED, so please don’t even allow that thought to form in your minds.

There’s a lot of things I wished for as a child, but my deepest and biggest wish was that my siblings and I would have a relationship that no one could break. I was not a horrible child growing up (at least that’s what I think) haha, nor was I a nuisance… okay okay I may have been a little annoying, but that’s besides the point. I was simply a child who yearned to have a non breakable relationship with her older siblings, and I’m sure I’m not alone with that feeling. I am much older now, and I still yearn for those relationships with my siblings. Can I be transparent here? It honestly really breaks my heart to see and know that my siblings are closer to people who aren’t of blood than they are with me. It also breaks my heart to hear them call others their “little sisters” when they have little ol me here yearning for a relationship with them. Who wouldn’t be hurt by that though right?

It’s hard to let go though because these are my brothers and sisters I’m talking about, but my peace matters. My happiness matters, and me being emotionally and mentally stable both matter, and if you are reading this and are experiencing the same feelings ALL of what I’m saying applies to you as well. I used to pray hard for my siblings and I to be eachothers bestfriends and for us to all get along and be one big happy family lol, but I’m now looking at the reality, and the reality is that it is just not going to happen. I hate to say that because I am huge on faith, and having faith that God will restore relationships, but how can God restore and reconcile a relationship that was never formed or built?

I can’t keep allowing myself to get upset because they simply do not desire to have a close relationship with me.

TRANSPARENCY…..

I had to deactivate my social media two weeks ago (it’s still deactivated too) because I found myself getting jealous of people on my timelines who were posting group messages, and pictures of them with their siblings and them loving on each other, laughing and joking around.

That was when I knew I had a problem, and I needed to seek God for his truth and for his guidance. I was in such a dark place 2 weeks ago due to this feeling I buried for years. Please take it from me, do not bury any feelings you may have. Deal with them while you can because they will pop right back up.

“The act of burying is not an outlet to freedom.”  – Terran Brodie

I love my siblings, and I always will, however; It’s definitely time for me to let go of this desire to have close connected relationships with them.

So please, If you have siblings love on them, cherish them, support them, respect them, talk to them, check on them and just be there for them. Do not neglect them. Don’t forget to show them love on their birthdays, holidays or on any day. Congratulate them on their successes, and build a best-friend relationship with them. Do not place anyone on the outside above them. Strive to have long, lasting, strong relationships with your siblings and if your siblings did something that displeased you, forgive them for it and let it go because they should be the greatest gift that your parents ever gave you! Your friends should not be more important than your siblings.

“Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sins.” 1 Peter 4:8 

If you have children please start instilling in them that their brothers and sisters are their first best-friends, no matter the age differences/groups they may be in. Make sure they love each other unconditionally, and that no matter what they’re there for eachother.

& If you are like me, and feeling like me. KEEP YOUR HEAD UP! Stay encouraged and know that the Lord will fill your void.

We have a friend in Jesus!

“A man of many companions may come to ruin,
but there is a friend who sticks closer than a brother.” Proverbs 18:24 NLT

YOUR SIBLINGS MATTER!

Thank you for reading.

TerranZhane♥